Do you remember what you wished when you were 5? Or 10? Or 15?
Nope? Me neither.
I grew wishing my Dad comes back alive after I was 8. And I didn't remember what I wished other than that.
But after I worked and could buy things I wanted, I started make wishing list - or things to buy.
And the first I made it was middle of 2012.
I wrote it in the google document. But I never checked it again after then.
I wrote it only as a declaration for my self, that those are things I want to buy, but not necessarily I must buy in very soon-ish.
I never remembered that particular list until recently, few days or so.
After I finally found English version of Harry Potter books I wanted so much, and finally, bought it!
Then I told my friend, "You know, this is what I've been wanted since God knows when."
And she told me, "God is kind, right? You may not remember when you wish it, but He still gives you."
Then I remembered, I had this one little list of things I wanted to buy. I found and read it.
And guess what, ALL of my wishing list have been come true!
I've bought all of things I wanted back in 2012. And I didn't even plan it!
Even more, the things I wanted that was not in the list!

The things I put on the list were basically things I always wanted for a long time.
Or things I really really really want.
One of them was Harry Potter books English version, which I've always wanted since what, I'm 15?
And I put them there because I'm not sure I could afford to buy them all, or at least in one year time.
But God made it comes true.
Not only He granted it in only 1,5 year time, He also lets me to buy them all by my own money!

Then I realized, that God really listens to every single wish, every single pray, that you may not say it, but your heart did.
We usually just complain on how He never listens to our prayings, and the things we think we need right now are the ones we don't have.
But we're wrong.
God knows the best time to make your wishes come true.
God knows the best way to make your wishes come true.
And God will make your wishes come true, when you're least expecting it.

New season is coming up!
This is my first season as an RQTer. So I'm really excited for this season!
Beside few weeks ago I had a talk with Nathan about how fun this season will be.
Maya may or may not be with RQT this season.
And Kirra most likely won't be. 
But RQT has few new members (and probably oldbie returning!) and they are so nice!
One of them, Katsuro - or Kat- is the one newbie I'm rather close to.
We botted together a lot, and even it looks like I beat the hell outta him, I bet he'll be better than me in times.
Arielle and Kharz as new captains have provide us with so many fun practices.
Survivor games with 3+ extra souls, whacky bludgers games I don't recall the name, ickyviews, and today we had teams botting (which was crazy because it was Nathan vs Kharz and I and we lost >__>)
Also today was the first game of the season: HQT vs GQT.
It's nice to show Kat what a real game was like. Even the game itself wasn't going nicely XD
It's been so great being in RQT. It's only like, what, 4 months now?! Yet I feel so welcomed everyday.
And I just can't stop being grateful with whom I'm with here.
So many lessons, so many fun times, so many talks, so many laughts, so many yells, so many many good experiences.

Gue tau, banyak yang komplain tentang kenapa gue susah banget diajak ketemu, kenapa bilangnya ga bisa ketemu padahal taunya gue cuma santai-santai di rumah ga kemana-mana, kenapa kalo ketemu maunya jam-jam tertentu aja?

Well here.
Gue akui, pertama, gue itu adalah orang yang sangat amat rumahan. Terutama setelah kerja.
Kerja dari Senin-Jum'at, ketemu banyak orang, ngurusin banyak hal, bikin gue capek dan butuh waktu buat ngenetralin perasaan jenuh dan capek sewaktu kerja.
Mungkin itu kenapa gue kalo kerja selalu keliatan happy dan enjoy.
Gue suka ngebagi waktu, minggu ini keluar rumah, minggu depan di rumah aja, dst.
Karena kalo setiap weekend gue abisin keluar rumah, pas weekdaynya gue bakalan capek dan jadinya jenuh.
Kalo di rumah, walau gue cuma beresin kamar, botting, ngobrol via Skype atau irc, denger lagu, nonton film, main handphone, tapi badan gue udah ngecharge lagi buat hari-hari ke depannya.
Jadi, gue sebenernya mau kok keluar rumah, cuma ga tiap minggu :D

Dan pulang malem.
Ini yang terutama.
Ga banyak orang yang ngerti kalo gue ga suka banget pulang malem.
Ga suka banget.
Dan pulang malem yang paling bisa gue toleransi adalah jam setengah 7 sampe rumah.
Mungkin karena dari dulu selalu dipesen kalo sebelum Magrib harus udah di rumah, jadi sampe umur 22 pun gue jadi merasa nyaman kalo sebelum Magrib udah ada di rumah.
Lagian, gue itu termasuk yang cepet ngantuk (walau tidurnya tetep telat).
Ya intinya, gue ga nyaman aja kalo jam 5 sore belum siap-siap pulang ke rumah haha.

So there,
Kesimpulannya: gue adalah orang yang membutuhkan banyak waktu me-time dan bukan tipe yang bisa ditemui keliaran di luar rumah sehabis Magrib (only special occassion) :D

Semenjak gue sekolah, gue punya temen-temen yang punya kesukaan dan ketidaksukaan macem-macem. Ada yang ga suka nasi, atau makanan tertentu. Dimana gue waktu itu adalah penyuka segala. Semua makanan enak bagi gue. Semua jenis makanan oke di mulut gue. Gue pikir waktu itu gue punya kelainan karena ga bisa ngebedain mana makanan yang disuka dan yang ga disuka haha. Tapi ternyata cuma masalah waktu. Belum saatnya.

Seiring dengan berjalannya waktu, gue bertambah tua dan dewasa, gue semakin tau apa yang gue mau. Dan dengan itu juga gue jadi punya hal-hal yang gue suka dan tidak suka. Bahkan ada juga hal-hal yang ga bisa gue toleransi sama sekali.
Dan sebaliknya, ada hal-hal yang tadinya gue ga suka, sekarang udah mulai bisa menerima dan biasa.

Gue masih ga suka hujan, masih ga begitu suka pantai.
Dulu gue ga bisa toleransi sama perokok, pasti gue judesin di mana pun kapanpun. Tapi sekarang gue udah bisa toleransi dan berpikir, "Suka-suka lo deh!" walau pasti masih gue judesin kalo orangnya ngerokok ga liat-liat situasi, kondisi, dan tempat.
Dulu gue termasuk fobia darah, temen-temen deket gue waktu sekolah dulu pasti tau. Tapi sekarang udah biasa aja, walau masih ga suka bau darah.
Dulu pulang malem seneng-seneng aja, karena bisa main sama temen lama-lama. Tapi sekarang ga suka sama sekali dan pulang malem cuma buat ketemu sama orang-orang tertentu yang syaratnya juga banyak. Oh, dan kalo lembur kerja.
Dulu gue suka berbagai macam makanan dan minuman. Tapi sekarang, udah ga kuat soda, ga begitu suka nasi (jadi ga tiap hari makan nasi), ga begitu suka mie, ga suka banget mie ayam, tenggorokan gue juga jadi sensitif banget sama bahan pengawet, ga suka pepaya, ga suka pisang, ga suka bau kulit ayam, ga suka manis-manis, ga suka santan-santanan, dan lain-lain.
Dimana, dulu-dulu, gue malah seneng banget makan makanan di atas.
Tapi gue masih makan eskrim hampir setiap minggu. Masih suka bakso. Masih suka oreo. Masih suka potato chips (walau Chitato sekarang terasa aneh bagi gue).

Dipikir-pikir, lucu ya, badan kita beradaptasi sama lingkungan dan pengalaman yang tubuh kita alami.
Dia menyortir sendiri dan menentukan mana yang kita suka dan ga suka.
Gue berharap nanti ada saatnya di mana tubuh gue membuat gue ga suka susu dan daging merah.
Bukan karena gue sakit tentunya. Jangan sampe.

No one cares about being late until they run out of time.

What hurts is not the feeling of not knowing.
It's when you secretly know everything and no one even bothers to tell you the truth.

When you stop to care because you're too damaged.
When you stop to trust because it hurts too much.
When you walk away because you think it's enough.
When you say goodbye because you feel it's the time.
What do you think you are doing?