2022 was my hardest year since 2000. 

I had to finish my thesis while working full time. 

We lost ibu, so suddenly. And just right when I was the closest with her. 

I believe I've never cried that much before. 

But in 2023, it feels like God is trying to cheer me up. 

All my favorite artists came to Indonesia: Arctic Monkeys, Agust D, Tomorrow x Together, and Jacob Collier. 

Arctic Monkeys is my most-listened to artist of all time. I honestly cried a little when they played their first song. I still had goosebumps and remember my feelings back then. We got the tickets we wanted by ourselves too. It was really a God's blessing, really. 

Agust D or Suga or Min Yoongi is my first and only bias in the whole k-pop world. First-everything is special to me so I'm really glad he was my first k-pop concert. My first k-pop concert is my first bias. We got the tickets ourselves too even though it wasn't really what we wanted. But we managed to bump it up for better ones, fortunately. Even though IME sucked and Yoongi was terribly sick, he still delivered a great performance and I truly, really enjoyed it. I sang hard, jumped hard, and fangirled hard. 

I'm relieved TXT boys came back after I didn't manage to secure a ticket for their first concert end of last year. This time, I managed to get an underpriced ticket too! TXT concert feels more k-pop-y for me than Yoongi's. And I feel more at ease because it feels like I'm a guest in another fandom's event. While for Yoongi's, it felt like I was the host (because I'm an ARMY lol hope that makes sense). The concert was very beautiful and like a fairy tale. The boys are really handsome! I remember screaming "Holy shit Soobin is so handsome!!!" every 10 minutes. 

And last but not lease, Jacob Collier, who gave me the most beautiful concert I've ever attended. It was intimate, personal, lovely, and (like I said before) beautiful. Being there reminded me again how much I love jazz and belong to jazz audience. Everything was so chill, no long queue, air-conditioned room in seating layout. 

Apart from the concerts, I also managed to fulfill my long-time wish: reading 100 books in a year. 

Thanks to Kindle, Libby, and long-hours commuting whenever I work from the office. Reading while commuting makes commuting much more bearable. 

One time, when I read, there are two guys (who are much younger than me) who talk about what I was reading. They're apparently practicing speaking English, it was cute. Thankfully I didn't read an embarassing book lol so they could freely discuss about it. I stil think about them and honestly kinda regret that I didn't respond to them. But in my defense, I had no energy to talk to strangers that day. 

This year, we got additional family members (not by choice), Bora the cat. We had Sasa too, who came in March but she disappeared a few months ago. I cried for her for weeks after that. I regret so much why I let her out that day. Hope she's healthy, happy, and taken care of, wherever she is now. If there's a chance she could come back, I would very much welcome her back. 

And Bora, he's such a spoiled little brat. He's loud, loves cuddling and eating. Even though Black and Swimi don't really get along with him, he doesn't care. He loves everyone. I'm proud of his character because I raise him well. 

I also very thankful for friends who are still in touch with me despite me living kinda far away now. 

Them who came to Bogor to hang our with me. 

Them who remember me when they plan to come to Bogor. 

Them who invited me to hang out with them. 

Them who agreeing with my random plans in visiting new places.

Them who are keeping in touch through comments, DMs, and memes. 

I adore and thank each of you all. 

What should I plan for 2024? 

I have a few resolutions I won't list here. 

But I want to do old hobbies and find new ones. 

I want to enjoy life more and appreciate everything that I have in life. 

I want to make memories, and preserve it.

So one day, I can look back and realize that I've lived my life well.

2022 was hard, but I thank 2023 for healing me. 

It's a long journey, still. But 2023 shows me that life is capable to give me happiness. 

2023 shows me that light can be found in the darkest place, even though I wasn't looking for it. 

That's, again, how kind God is to me. 

Thank you, 2023. You will be missed.  

IT WAS THAT CLOSE!

YES. 

I ASSURE YOU. 

I had to keep my phone really close to my chest because it's the perfect distance then.

After many accidental gigs, I finally watch Sri Hanuraga Trio on purpose lol. 

He was THAT good. 

Even though I wanted him to play my fave, Suwe Ora Jamu and Gundul Pacul. But Manuk Dadali made me just more than happy! 

Kevin Yosua's bass playing was also so gorgeous!

I never paid attention to his playing until then and I'm hooked immediately. 

And I always like Elfa Zulham's drumming. 

It was one fine day.

The story behind this video...

We watched Teza Sumendra in another stage just before Monita performed. 

I worried because I really want to watch her. 

We left a few minutes before Teza finished, and when we arrived at Monita's stage, she was just starting. 

YAY!

But being such a hobbit and all that jazz, I couldn't get the best view. 

So I stand in a higher pavement, but it was only 20-30 cm wide, so I got to keep my balance. 

It's a hard thing to do when you want to dance along and got hype! Hahaha. 

It was the first time I watched Monita, and I certainly will watch her again sometimes!