If i have chance to start over my life, i promise i wont screw over my heart by meeting you.
If i really have a chance, it'd be like, you're there, i'm here. We wouldnt meet.

i hate the fact that i love my dad too so much and still want him here after eleven years.
i hate the fact that i dont feel close to my mum, sister, and brother anyone.
i hate the fact that i have bestfriends who live outside town.
i hate the fact that i just want one boy whom i shall not want him.
i hate the fact that i'm too sensitive, never forget, and dont forgive.
i hate the fact that i dont know how it's like to be a part of a normal and real family.
i hate the fact that i cant tell anyone if i'm upset.
i hate the fact that i cant cry easily and keep the hurts inside.
i hate the fact that i'm not good enough to make people proud of me.
i hate the fact of my feeling that no one really wants me exist.
i hate the fact that i dont really have a home.
i hate the fact that i am me and i cant change this.
i hate the fact that i'm very ungrateful and write this piece of shit

You talk about your favorite things while i tell you my nightmare.
You stare at me close while i cry my tears out.
You laugh hard while i giggle, and you smile to see me grins.
You sleep while i'm awake.
You're busy while i have free times to be shared with.
You wanna be on the highest mountain while i'm on the bottom of deepest ocean.
But you know that i'll listen to you even when i need you to listen to me.
Like i know that you'll always be back to me even you're already in thousand miles away.



You are my best friend and brother and NOT a Tom to my Summer ;D

I'd like to have ya 2 years ago, now, 2 years later, and may be more.
Promise?

• [x] You liked going to school to see your friends.

• [ ] You’ve had more than a couple detentions.

• [x] You always have something to do on the weekends.

• [ ] You like to be the center of attention.

• [x] You get above average grades in school.

• [x] You’ve been called bossy before.

• [x] You’re a bit of a daredevil / you like an adrenaline rush.

• [ ] You are athletic.

• [ ] You are one of the best players on your team.

• [x] You would do anything for your loved ones.

• [x] You like the colour red.

• [x] Your favourite class is Transfiguration or DADA.

• [x] You would never break a promise.

TOTAL: 10

Hufflepuff:

• [x] You have many acquaintances, but only a handful of good friends.

• [ ] You get average grades in school.

• [ ] You’ve been called boring before.

• [x] You don’t like to brag about your achievements.

• [x] You value honesty.

• [x] You don’t mind working hard to get what you want.

• [ ] You like the colour yellow.

• [x] You have a job.

• [ ] You are athletic.

• [ ] You are a team player.

• [ ] You are in the middle of the social totem pole.

• [ ] You are easily amused.

• [x] You like helping others.

• [ ] Your favourite class is Herbology or Divination.

• [x] You like the music played on the radio best.

TOTAL: 7

Ravenclaw:

• [x] You get good grades in school.

• [x] You like to read.

• [ ] Dumb people annoy you.

• [x] You are creative.

• [x] You’ve been called a know-it-all before.

• [ ] You would say your intelligence level is higher than most.

• [x] You hate cheating.

• [ ] People often want you to help them with homework or projects.

• [x] You are more into the creative arts: theatre, dancing, drawing, etc.

• [x] You are extremely logical in your way of thinking.

• [x] You are considered shy or quiet by people you don’t know.

• [x] You like the colour blue.

• [x] Your favourite class is A History of Magic, Charms, or Care of Magical Creatures.

• [x] You tend to over analyze things.

• [x] You can focus and pay attention well.

TOTAL: 11

Slytherin:

• [ ] You are very competitive.

• [ ] You like the finer things in life.

• [ ] You think welfare is a waste.

• [ ] You’ve made fun of someone in the past week.

• [ ] You’ve been called a snob before.

• [ ] You think the end justifies the means.

• [x] You’re not afraid to say something to someone else’s face.

• [ ] You tend to think people are a bit jealous of you.

• [ ] You’ve made someone cry by just saying something to them.

• [ ] You tend to root for the villains in movies, books, etc.

• [x] You are very good with words.

• [ ] Above all, you want to be successful in life.

• [ ] You like the colour green.

• [ ] You love to win.

• [x] Your favourite class is Potions or DADA

TOTAL: 3 (WUUT?!)

RAVENCLAW-er FTW! HAHAHAHA

Last night, i have this chitchat with mas kiki about this movie. 
This is one of my favorite movie. 
And he, he's kinda paranoid about this typical Summer type. 
When i think that her character is so real and it's acceptable. 
And then i open old stuffs about this movie and find some good quotes. 



McKenzie: [drunk] So do you have a boyfriend?
Summer: No.
McKenzie: Why not?
Summer: Because I don’t want one.
McKenzie: Come on; I don’t believe that.
Summer: You don’t believe that a woman could enjoy being free and independent?
McKenzie: Are you a lesbian?
Summer: [laughing] No I’m not a lesbian. I just, don’t feel comfortable being anyone’s girlfriend. I don’t actually feel comfortable being anyone’s anything.


Summer: Ok. I, like being on my own. I think relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We’re young, we live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world; might as well have fun while we can and, save the serious stuff for later.


Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin, and they end, with no lasting memories made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life.


TOM: People don't realize this, but loneliness is underrated

SUMMER: You weren't wrong, Tom. You were just wrong about me

SUMMER: There's no such thing as love. It's a fantasy.


Rachel Hansen: Just because she's likes the same bizzaro crap you do doesn't mean she's your soul mate. 



Summer is really a nightmare to Tom, as we can see. 
But she is true. Just really true. And make me now that people are possible to do that

WHOA! Stupid me i havent post anything about FCVR!
So here it goes...

FCVR is (or are) Fathia, Chita, Vio, and Rry (Harry).
@FVTY @awrchita @viocdrewb @monsterharry
Previously, we are just FCV. Before i know Harry and Harry joins those stupid conferences in yahoo messenger hahaha.

On Saturday, Sept 27 (if i'm not mistaken). I asked F and V to go on conference.
Because i wanna meet them in this holiday since i spend it just in Jakarta.
Then we invite Harry to join.
All was good before F got disconnected and then we started over.
Each of us opened the new room but didnt work, right until *finally* V can did it *HOORAY!*
So we decided to meet in 711 Senayan on Wednesday, Aug 31st.

And the the gov fckd up with held back the Lebaran days.
I got panicked. And i ask the guys to open the conference again.
I borrow a blackberry *because i didnt bring cellphone charger and doing conference make the battery runs out*.
But Harry didnt appear. He appeared after an-half hour.

After this and that.
We decide to meet in our previous date, which is then became the first day Lebaran.
But the time is 3pm until drop! Haha.
I know that this Lebaran wouldnt be so busy.
So after i met my mum *who came very late -_-*, had lunch, and talked to family, i went to Senayan.
I took busway from Kelapa Gading and i reminded Harry about our plan, but he didnt answer my (and V) calls, either reply our txt.

When i'm in Matraman, Harry called and told me that he just took a showered.
I told him, i was in Matraman already and he was like "wuuuuuut?" haha.
Then i arrived in Senayan very early.
I went to Senayan City first, Take a walk and bought some drink.
F told me that she was still in her relative's house. And V got panicked because F hadnt picked her up haha.
So after F said that she was on the way pick V up, i went out the Senayan City and straight to 711.
At 3.45 (maybe?) FCV met again! Haha.
Then V called Harry, and he told that he got stuck in Pancoran (his house in Tambun). Couldnt move at all!
And we joked about Harry arrived very late, and right before we wanna go home lol, just kidding Har ;)
But surprisingly, Harry arrived not long after that call.
So he joined us and, here we go: FCVR <3

Harry told that he was hungry and wanna have some meals, not just snacks.
So we went acrossed to Senayan City and had meals there.
But me and V didnt.
I just bought a puff muffin and Wendy's ice cream in medium size (which was big! for me). And V bought milo and french fries.
And not to forget to mention that my big  medium size of ice cream got finished by Harry! *biiiigbigthanks!* haha.

Then we went into music store.
V wanted to buy Justin Bieber CD (but then she bought the DVD then regretted it).
And after the conspiracy from me, F bought the Speak Now CD by Taylor Swift.
Unfortunately, i failed to make Harry bought Cobra Starship CD hahaha.

After that we back to 711. We took seats upstairs, the indoor ones.
Because the outdoor air was hot -_-"
And we joked about our voices and laughs and riots we made would make people downstairs wondered if there's a party there hahaha.
We talked. And laughed. And then i wondered about us in one frame together.
First, me and V tried to make base for Harry's camera. But just me and F who want to sit down and the pictures took.
Then F asked a woman next to us to take photos of us hahaha.
When i realize it's 9pm already, we decided to go home.
Because i went home by transjakarta and i'm afraid that it didnt operate until late.

So we hugged, said goodbyes, and see you later guys! :D

This is almost September and i kinda forget and i havent have any resolutions.
Well, i dont do resolutions everymonth.
Every year, yeah. But not every month.
Just on months which i think i need to. And special on September #dontaskwhy.
So yeah, lets see what comes in mind.

Resolutions of AWRCHITA on September :
1. Improvement at praying. Do or die, Chita! (yes i will, maam)
2. Get expo stuffs go well and satisfying (Amen!)
3. Be 42. Always 42. Dont less or more.
4. Be good to people. No matter what happens *gasp*
5. More water. Live healthier.
6. Fill up the can-bank! (you got it, you got it!)
7. Bring akai to be serviced.
8. ........................................................................

Whatelse?
My mind suck right now but i cant make resolutions for September on September haha.
So yeah, i made that, seven.
Is that good?
Not that hard, huh, Chita?
Go get them!
HAPPY END OF AUGUST!

Oh hey! It's me staying up all night and bored. Haha.

Actually at first i plan to go bed early, but then i had this conference in Y!M with my bestfriends: Fathia, Vio, and brand-new-handsome-best-friend *hahaha*, Harry.

We plan to meet and it's kinda mess because we almost cant find the good time. Well, you know. 4 people schedules.

And after got crashed because the Y!m group suddenly didnt work out and i got stressed, finally we made the time!

The second days of Lebaran. August 31. 10.30pm in 711 Senayan.

Will be the third times for FCV to meet. And my first time to meet Harry.

Ya know wut, to be best-friended, it doesnt need to live in same town, meet every day-week-or month. Or like that. As long as you keep in faith, you can get along :)

Then i went to pack stuffs. Because tomorrow (well, this morning) i plan to go to Jekardah to visit my grandma.

But unfortunately, i couldnt finish my packing because some stuffs need to be iron-ed in the morning. And i need to find my tshirt which perhaps, get lost in my cousin's wardrobe.

Then i go online. Browse, tweet, watch some flv, musics. Blablabla.

Then got tired and almost go to sleep when this blondie little brat tweeted tha he held a livechat!asjfkhncytbuvrnmioun!

Bertie!

So i went online and watch him.

He mentioned Indonesia :)

Then an hour ago, i was hungry and about to make hot choco with cornflakes.

Bertie still did his chat. With some weird-cool acts of his haha.

But when i finished the choco, DANG! He went offline! HOW.DARE.YOU! :(

So now i go to blog and post stuffs while eating my cereals :/

And also, maybe i'll get my plans held because i cant get up early. So i can go in the morning. And so on.

So yeah. I post this boring stuff.

WAIT!

I need to make September's resolutions! It's almost September, isnt it?

And also finished my daily journal which is almost become weekly journal hahahaha.

Okay, see ya, bye!

There's some things changed by a day.

Dear @ichasumapradja , saya mau nulis sedikit karena kiriman DM kamu yg saya baca pagi ini.

Cinderella:
[x] One of your parents is dead
[ ] You are expected to do a lot of chores
[x] You love to dress up
[x] You love animals
[x] You are waiting patiently for your Prince Charming
[ ] Your mom is really strict
[ ] You have sisters who seem kind of jealous of you
[x] You’re afraid to speak your mind sometimes
[ ] You have left your shoes at a friend’s house before
[ ] You have blonde hair
TOTAL: 5

Belle:
[ ] You’ve kissed someone your friends didn’t like
[ ] You’ve been lost in the forest
[x] You love to read
[ ] You are not shy at all, and not afraid to speak your mind
[ ] One of your family members is a bit weird
[ ] You have done volunteer work
[x] You have a wild imagination
[x] You love to take care of people in need
[ ] You’ve had guys like you only because they think you’re pretty
[x] You’ve rejected at least one person when they’ve asked you out
TOTAL: 3

Jasmine:
[ ] Your dad is very rich/important
[ ] You are very clever
[x] You’ve been with someone way different from you
[x] You’re unique and different from everyone else
[x] You’d never marry someone just because they were rich
[x] You have set a lot of goals for yourself
[x] You don’t have a lot of friends
[x] You’re independent
[ ] You are wealthy
[ ] Your parents try to control your life
TOTAL: 6

Ariel
[ ] Your parents expect a lot from you
[ ] You really try to follow the rules, but it’s hard for you
[x] You’re a bit of a trouble maker
[ ] You’re the youngest in your family or in the last 2
[ ] You have a lot of sisters (3 or more)
[ ] You collect something
[x] You have/had long, hair
[ ] You have/had a pet fish
[x] You’re extremely curious
[ ] You believe everything people tell you/you’re a bit gullible
TOTAL: 3

Snow White:
[ ] You know that you’re beautiful
[ ] Sometimes it seems like your mom is jealous of you
[ ] You’ve almost been killed
[ ] You have at least seven good friends
[ ] You’ve had food poisoning
[x] You have/had short hair
[ ] You get along with almost everyone
[ ] All of your friends are different
[x]You love to have a good time
[ ]You’re happier when you’re out of the house than in
TOTAL: 2

Mulan:
[x] You can be a tomboy sometimes.
[x] People wish you could be a bit more girly
[x] You’ve pretended to be someone you’re not
[ ] You’ve had a physical fight with someone
[ ] You have/had considered running away from home
[ ] Your parents try to plan your life out
[x] A lot of your friends are boys
[ ] You often find yourself in bad situations
[ ] You feel like the world’s against you.
[ ] Your principles are more important to you than anything else.
TOTAL: 4

Aurora:
[x] You live/have lived with someone other than your parents
[ ] You almost died at a very young age
[ ] You are gentle, loving, and/or thoughtful
[ ] You have a decent singing voice
[x] You like to sleep in late on the weekends
[ ] You spend most of your time outside
[ ] You’re adopted
[ ] You’re very romantic
[ ] Pink is one of your favorite colors
[ ] You constantly sleep in.
TOTAL: 2

Pocahontas:
[x] You love to walk around and explore big cities
[ ] You are more spiritual than religious
[ ] You’ve been in an interracial relationship
[x] One of your family members is dead
[ ] Your parents are/were very protective of you
[ ] Someone you know has been in war
[x] You love nature
[x] You have/had black hair
[ ] You would love to move somewhere exotic and beautiful
[ ] You’re very adventurous
TOTAL: 4

Rapunzel:
[ ] You’re an orphaned child or have an evil step-mother
[ ] You have many different hobbies to keep you busy
[x] You can get really bored
[ ] You have very long hair
[ ] Your hair is bright Blonde
[ ] You’re an artsy person
[x] You’re childish
[ ] You can’t wait to stop the same routine each day and start living. Yet the thought of leaving is scary.
[x] You care about others and their feelings
[x] You like to follow the rules. Sometimes you cannot for your own good and then you feel conflicted and worry about how your mother will react.

TOTAL: 4

So, i'm more like Jasmine and Cinderella :D #brblookforaladdinandprincecharming ;)

Little things, maybe, wont affect other as much as bigger things can.

Hey Chita!

What is love?

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing, and is your voice caught within your chest?

-it isn’t love, it’s like.

You can’t keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right?

-it isn’t love, it’s lust.

Are you proud and eager to show them off?

-it isn’t love, it’s pride.

Do you want them because you know they’re there?

-it isn’t love, it’s loneliness.

Are you there because it’s what everyone wants?

-it isn’t love, it’s loyalty.

Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand?

-it isn’t love, it’s low confidence.

Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don’t want to hurt them?

-it isn’t love, it’s pity.

Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?

-it isn’t love, it’s infatuation.

Do you pardon their faults because you care about them?

-it isn’t love, it’s friendship.

Do you tell them everyday that they are the only one you think of?

-it isn’t love, it’s lie.

Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake?

-it isn’t love, it’s charity.

Does your heart ache and break when they’re sad?

-then it’s love.

Do you cry for their pain, even when they’re strong?

-then it’s love.

Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?

-then it’s love.

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you there?

-then it’s love.

Do you accept their faults because they’re a part of who they are?

-then it’s love.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret?

-then it’s love.

Would you give them your heart, your life, your death?

Think about it for a second.

Source: Tumblr, an awesome website ;)

Oh no,
Look what you've done
Let's meet the victim of a hit and run
Picked up and let down
You were never as you led on

You said just friends and no strings
But that leaves loose end for old flings
Get back to old days and old flames
You never left around

Won't you let me know?
How do I get away when you're begging me to stay
What do you need me to say?
You're anything but ordinary

What you want me to do?
I've given it all to you
I wish you would return the favor

Did you forget what I said?
Trainwreck, here we, Here we go again
Derailed, did I fail to mention
I put it on the line

Whether you and me could ever be
We'll never see, no
Cause you keep the lights off
We only do it in the dark

Won't you let me know?
How do I get away hen you're begging me to stay?
What do you need me to say?
You're anything but ordinary

What you want me to do?
I've given it all to you
I wish you would return the favor

Are you gonna throw it all away?
(Return-turn-turn the favor)
Are we gonna do this all again?
(Ah!)

I mean it's all pretend And the game should end
I guess nobody wins (Won't you let me go?)

How do I get away when you're begging me to stay
What do you need me to say?
You're anything but ordinary

What you want me to do?
I've given it all to you
I wish you would return the favor

How do I get away when you're begging me to stay?
(Are you gonna throw it all away)
What do you need me to say
(Are we gonna do the same again?)
You're anything but ordinary

What you want me to do?
(Wanna throw it all away)
I've given it all to you
I wish you would return the favor

Well it’s good to hear your voice, I hope you’re doing fine
And if you ever wonder, I’m lonely here tonight
Lost here in this moment, time keeps slipping by
If I could have just one wish, I’d have you by my side

Oh I miss you, oh I need you
And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don’t see your face
Nothing’s changed, no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday
Say you love me more than you did before
And I’m sorry it’s this way
But I’m coming home, I’ll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay

Well I tried to live without you but tears fall from my eyes
I’m alone and I feel empty, I’m torn apart inside

I look up at the stars hoping you are doing the same
And somehow I feel closer and I can hear you say

Oh I miss you, oh I need you
And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don’t see your face
Nothing’s changed, no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday
Say you love me more than you did before
And I’m sorry it’s this way
But I’m coming home, I’ll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay, always stay

I never wanna lose you
And if I had to I would choose you
So stay, please always stay
You’re the one that I hold on to
Cause my heart would stop without you

I love you more than I did before
And if today I don’t see your face
Nothing’s changed, no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday
Say you love me more than you did before
And I’m sorry that it’s this way
But I’m coming home, I’ll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay, I’ll always stay
And I love you more than I did before
And I’m sorry that it’s this way
But I’m coming home, I’ll be coming home
And if you ask I will stay, I will stay, I will stay