13 years seem a lot of time.
It's a very long time, indeed.
Everyday I pray that this is only a dream.
That I will wake up one day finding my dad is just sleeping in the room next to mine.
Or that I was just asleep on the train our way back from amusement park.
Or anything, but just tell me one thing: tell me that my dad is not dead.

I love him with the whole of my heart, every then and now.
I miss him everyday since 13 years ago.

Today is the day when he was dead.
I don't know if I'm supposed to not remember today, but I always do.
And I can't imagine the year when I forget that 25 April is the day when my life fell apart.
I hope I never will.

And today, the 13th of 25 April.
And today, I remember you, like I always do.
I love you dear father, forever and always.

When were you happiest?
I have a group of bestfriends: F, V, and R (I called them by those names, yes). We have annual meeting and when we meet we do nothing except eating junkfoods and cups of ice cream, walking, talking nonsense, and laughing.
I'm very grateful and they're one of the best part of my life.

What is your greatest fear? 
Future. Lol. Basically, not knowing what I'm going to face.

What is your earliest memory? 
My second birthday - I think. My parents hide away my milk bottle.

Which living person do you most admire, and why? 
A friend who lives far away from where I am, her name is Sam. She's very brave, smart, kind, strong, and what I see in her is all I wish I were.

What is the trait you most deplore in yourself? 
Crustiness.
Even I'm not the loud type, but yeah. Lots of things annoy me easily. It's really not good.

What is the trait you most deplore in others? 
Lying.

What was your most embarrassing moment? 
When I was in Junior High School, I fell asleep on the floor and I almost peed on it before someone woke me up. It was really embarassing.

What makes you unhappy? 
When I can't spend the day the way I planned for it.

What do you most dislike about your appearance? 
My small nose and teeth.

What is your guiltiest pleasure? 
Watching MTV Awards.
I always complain about them after watching but I'll watch it for the next year and next year and next year. Oh well.

What is your most unappealing habit? 
Hoarding.
I'm keeping lots of things with me in my room. So when someone entered my room they would think it's so messy.

What would be your fancy dress costume of choice? 
I really adore the victorian era type of clothes and would always love to wear that. With hats too.

What is the worst thing anyone’s ever said to you? 
When my ex-bestfriend said that I'm a skinny bitch.
Well I'm maybe skinny but I'm not a bitch. So there.

Which words or phrases do you most overuse? 
Well.

What has been your biggest disappointment?
Letting my sister down for her school.

If you could edit your past, what would you change? 
I would do anything to make my dad back to life.

What is the closest you’ve come to death? 
I drive motorbike everyday so everyday is the closest day I'm with death.
But I had been very reckless by almost hitting the big truck. It was 2 years ago.

What single thing would improve the quality of your life? 
Consistency.

What do you consider your greatest achievement? 
Keeping my brother very close with me and give him everything he needs.

What keeps you awake at night? 
Watching or reading stuffs. Sometimes talking.

What song would you like played at your funeral? 
You've got a friend.

How would you like to be remembered?
By being remembered.

Tell us a secret 
Life is fair. You only need to look a little closer.