2014 was a very good year for me. Because I avoid the word perfect.
Because I'm saving the word perfect for later.
If before 2014 I was busy planning and praying for things I wanted, in 2014, I got a lot of them.
I found an unicorn plushie, had Totoro plushie from F, bought a couple tshirts I love, learnt Dutch (!),read quite many history books, had a even better relationship with my mum, went to holidays in Jogja (and basically had mine and Nisa's dream from 3 years ago came true) spent the best 5 days in my life together with the people I love, restoring my lost friendship with Nisa, strengthen my friendships with other people, saw Nisa and F graduated, and generally just being Chita that I wanted my self to.
It's not all pretty, of course.
We lost F's mom on November.
I closed my whole book of 5 years with someone.
I cried a lot during October-November more than the rest of the year.
I still not believe that we need to run through rain to see rainbows, you know.
But I believe that we go through hard things in order to make us wiser and a better person. So when we see the good things, we can't just enjoy the whole of it. We can also save it some for later, and learn from it.
Anyway, 2015 is going to be... different than any years I've had.
This year I'm going to put my self behind.
Because apparently, life is not all about yourself.
I dont know what life is all about though. So let's see.
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