RNWY

Maybe I feel tired because I've been running.
Running away from many things in my life.

Running away from the death of my father that has always haunted me.
Running away from the fact that I'm the eldest and that means I'm responsible of my Mom and younger siblings.

It overwhelms me, big times.
It's often that I think I want to disappear.
Or even wish to die instead.

People expect me to be strong and tough.
While inside, I'm only a little girl who miss and need her father.

I'm falling apart.
I'm failing.

I just want to live for my self.
Being responsible of my self.
Focus on my own dreams.
Carry the weight of my own burden.
Being haunted by my own mistakes.

For my whole life I've been trying to convince my self that life is fair.
But it always finds a way to tell me that it's not.
Maybe it really is not.
Maybe that's why there's an afterlife.