TWO O ONE FIVE

I told Luksie a few weeks ago that 2015 was one of my hardest years (second hardest, probably, after the year when my father died). But then God proved me that my life is much better and He is much kinder than I thought.
God gave me the perfect ending in 2015.
Not only for me, but also for my whole family - from paternal side.
We got to meet our big family who we never met for approximately 35 years!
And everyone was super kind and suuuuuper nice!
We laughed and talked like good friends.
And even though we can't remember each other's names yet, we still try to talk and catch up.

I learn one BIG thing: kindness is really a legacy that you should leave behind.

My father died more than 15 years ago.
Many people even hadn't seen him longer than that.
But they remember him so well.
When I introduce my self as his daughter, people put nice faces, shook my hand, smiled, and told me the kindness my father did to them. Some even gave me foods and stuffs.
Even after he died, my father always leaves me with good traces I'm always grateful of.
Thank you, Papa.

I also got to climb a mountain, went to a hike, and got wet in some waterfalls (one of them was in front of my great-grandmother's house!).
Half of the experiences was with my friends, the other half was with my families. So it was even.

I spent less money on book than I did in 2014 because I bought many books from bazaar haha.

I moved out of the house and went to live with Icha and Luksie, then met Winda, Zia, and Hanna. They made kost-life easy and fun and unforgettable!
Even now we're going in our own ways, I hope we can reunite again later.
I'm forever grateful for you, girls.
Thank you for many things <3

I spent 3 days in Solo (other than Karanglo, Tawangmangu lol) and it was wonderful.
I love Solo.
It's a quiet, lovely city.
I love the night market.
I love the foods.
I love the people.
I promise I'll be back again one day :)

I went snorkeling! And I LOVE IT A LOT OMG the feeling of being a mermaid, no worrying about taking your breath and seeing the fishes underwater.
I'll definitely try it again before I die!

2015 is the year when I'm moving forward, one of them is leaving the place I've been working at for the last five years.
Five years is not a short time.
I first joined when I was a teenager and now I'm (nearly) an adult.
I'm familiar with Brad as I am with my own self.
Mba Wulan is closer to me than any of my siblings.
Mba Murti knows me much better than my own mother does.
I laugh with mba Irma and Agung more often than with any of my friends.
But life goes on.
There are parts of the world I haven't seen yet.
There are challenges that are waiting to be conquered.
So I left my comfort zone and joined a new company start on January 7th.

I met someone from my past again.
The first boy of many things in my life.
But I made a mistake. Or more than just a mistake, possibly.
I guess it's a part of the story than can't be helped to happen.
I've learnt my lessons.
I realize that when you break someone's heart, it'll break yours too. 

As for friends. I lost a couple.
I called it natural selection.
I don't mind having people leaving.
If we're meant to be friends, we won't need to hurt ourselves to fit into each other's lives.
And I knew that just because we don't eat a lion doesn't mean he won't eat us, but I can't help but being sad when people thought differently of what we're doing.
When you put someone as your priority but they don't return the favor, I think you need to cut them off of your life.
Unless you are very strong at heart, which I'm not.

So many great things happened in 2015.
I still can't cook nor drive nor read a Dutch book nor knit nor get a quidditch MVP but I still call 2015 a great year!

I'm so thankful for every laughter I shared with families, friends, ex-friends, and strangers.
I'm thankful for the tears which I believe every single tear had made me stronger,
I'm thankful for new people in my life.
I'm thankful for being shown who are my real friends and which ones are the fakes.
I'm thankful for the dramas because that makes my personality even LESS dramatic.
I'm thankful for my solid, strong, fun family. Please keep us stay together forever.

I'm praying that 2016 will be a better year.
But I'm not only praying.
I'm also believing and working hard so it will really be a better year.

Alhamdulillah :)