If i have chance to start over my life, i promise i wont screw over my heart by meeting you.
If i really have a chance, it'd be like, you're there, i'm here. We wouldnt meet.

i hate the fact that i love my dad too so much and still want him here after eleven years.
i hate the fact that i dont feel close to my mum, sister, and brother anyone.
i hate the fact that i have bestfriends who live outside town.
i hate the fact that i just want one boy whom i shall not want him.
i hate the fact that i'm too sensitive, never forget, and dont forgive.
i hate the fact that i dont know how it's like to be a part of a normal and real family.
i hate the fact that i cant tell anyone if i'm upset.
i hate the fact that i cant cry easily and keep the hurts inside.
i hate the fact that i'm not good enough to make people proud of me.
i hate the fact of my feeling that no one really wants me exist.
i hate the fact that i dont really have a home.
i hate the fact that i am me and i cant change this.
i hate the fact that i'm very ungrateful and write this piece of shit

You talk about your favorite things while i tell you my nightmare.
You stare at me close while i cry my tears out.
You laugh hard while i giggle, and you smile to see me grins.
You sleep while i'm awake.
You're busy while i have free times to be shared with.
You wanna be on the highest mountain while i'm on the bottom of deepest ocean.
But you know that i'll listen to you even when i need you to listen to me.
Like i know that you'll always be back to me even you're already in thousand miles away.



You are my best friend and brother and NOT a Tom to my Summer ;D

I'd like to have ya 2 years ago, now, 2 years later, and may be more.
Promise?

• [x] You liked going to school to see your friends.

• [ ] You’ve had more than a couple detentions.

• [x] You always have something to do on the weekends.

• [ ] You like to be the center of attention.

• [x] You get above average grades in school.

• [x] You’ve been called bossy before.

• [x] You’re a bit of a daredevil / you like an adrenaline rush.

• [ ] You are athletic.

• [ ] You are one of the best players on your team.

• [x] You would do anything for your loved ones.

• [x] You like the colour red.

• [x] Your favourite class is Transfiguration or DADA.

• [x] You would never break a promise.

TOTAL: 10

Hufflepuff:

• [x] You have many acquaintances, but only a handful of good friends.

• [ ] You get average grades in school.

• [ ] You’ve been called boring before.

• [x] You don’t like to brag about your achievements.

• [x] You value honesty.

• [x] You don’t mind working hard to get what you want.

• [ ] You like the colour yellow.

• [x] You have a job.

• [ ] You are athletic.

• [ ] You are a team player.

• [ ] You are in the middle of the social totem pole.

• [ ] You are easily amused.

• [x] You like helping others.

• [ ] Your favourite class is Herbology or Divination.

• [x] You like the music played on the radio best.

TOTAL: 7

Ravenclaw:

• [x] You get good grades in school.

• [x] You like to read.

• [ ] Dumb people annoy you.

• [x] You are creative.

• [x] You’ve been called a know-it-all before.

• [ ] You would say your intelligence level is higher than most.

• [x] You hate cheating.

• [ ] People often want you to help them with homework or projects.

• [x] You are more into the creative arts: theatre, dancing, drawing, etc.

• [x] You are extremely logical in your way of thinking.

• [x] You are considered shy or quiet by people you don’t know.

• [x] You like the colour blue.

• [x] Your favourite class is A History of Magic, Charms, or Care of Magical Creatures.

• [x] You tend to over analyze things.

• [x] You can focus and pay attention well.

TOTAL: 11

Slytherin:

• [ ] You are very competitive.

• [ ] You like the finer things in life.

• [ ] You think welfare is a waste.

• [ ] You’ve made fun of someone in the past week.

• [ ] You’ve been called a snob before.

• [ ] You think the end justifies the means.

• [x] You’re not afraid to say something to someone else’s face.

• [ ] You tend to think people are a bit jealous of you.

• [ ] You’ve made someone cry by just saying something to them.

• [ ] You tend to root for the villains in movies, books, etc.

• [x] You are very good with words.

• [ ] Above all, you want to be successful in life.

• [ ] You like the colour green.

• [ ] You love to win.

• [x] Your favourite class is Potions or DADA

TOTAL: 3 (WUUT?!)

RAVENCLAW-er FTW! HAHAHAHA

Last night, i have this chitchat with mas kiki about this movie. 
This is one of my favorite movie. 
And he, he's kinda paranoid about this typical Summer type. 
When i think that her character is so real and it's acceptable. 
And then i open old stuffs about this movie and find some good quotes. 



McKenzie: [drunk] So do you have a boyfriend?
Summer: No.
McKenzie: Why not?
Summer: Because I don’t want one.
McKenzie: Come on; I don’t believe that.
Summer: You don’t believe that a woman could enjoy being free and independent?
McKenzie: Are you a lesbian?
Summer: [laughing] No I’m not a lesbian. I just, don’t feel comfortable being anyone’s girlfriend. I don’t actually feel comfortable being anyone’s anything.


Summer: Ok. I, like being on my own. I think relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We’re young, we live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world; might as well have fun while we can and, save the serious stuff for later.


Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin, and they end, with no lasting memories made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life.


TOM: People don't realize this, but loneliness is underrated

SUMMER: You weren't wrong, Tom. You were just wrong about me

SUMMER: There's no such thing as love. It's a fantasy.


Rachel Hansen: Just because she's likes the same bizzaro crap you do doesn't mean she's your soul mate. 



Summer is really a nightmare to Tom, as we can see. 
But she is true. Just really true. And make me now that people are possible to do that

WHOA! Stupid me i havent post anything about FCVR!
So here it goes...

FCVR is (or are) Fathia, Chita, Vio, and Rry (Harry).
@FVTY @awrchita @viocdrewb @monsterharry
Previously, we are just FCV. Before i know Harry and Harry joins those stupid conferences in yahoo messenger hahaha.

On Saturday, Sept 27 (if i'm not mistaken). I asked F and V to go on conference.
Because i wanna meet them in this holiday since i spend it just in Jakarta.
Then we invite Harry to join.
All was good before F got disconnected and then we started over.
Each of us opened the new room but didnt work, right until *finally* V can did it *HOORAY!*
So we decided to meet in 711 Senayan on Wednesday, Aug 31st.

And the the gov fckd up with held back the Lebaran days.
I got panicked. And i ask the guys to open the conference again.
I borrow a blackberry *because i didnt bring cellphone charger and doing conference make the battery runs out*.
But Harry didnt appear. He appeared after an-half hour.

After this and that.
We decide to meet in our previous date, which is then became the first day Lebaran.
But the time is 3pm until drop! Haha.
I know that this Lebaran wouldnt be so busy.
So after i met my mum *who came very late -_-*, had lunch, and talked to family, i went to Senayan.
I took busway from Kelapa Gading and i reminded Harry about our plan, but he didnt answer my (and V) calls, either reply our txt.

When i'm in Matraman, Harry called and told me that he just took a showered.
I told him, i was in Matraman already and he was like "wuuuuuut?" haha.
Then i arrived in Senayan very early.
I went to Senayan City first, Take a walk and bought some drink.
F told me that she was still in her relative's house. And V got panicked because F hadnt picked her up haha.
So after F said that she was on the way pick V up, i went out the Senayan City and straight to 711.
At 3.45 (maybe?) FCV met again! Haha.
Then V called Harry, and he told that he got stuck in Pancoran (his house in Tambun). Couldnt move at all!
And we joked about Harry arrived very late, and right before we wanna go home lol, just kidding Har ;)
But surprisingly, Harry arrived not long after that call.
So he joined us and, here we go: FCVR <3

Harry told that he was hungry and wanna have some meals, not just snacks.
So we went acrossed to Senayan City and had meals there.
But me and V didnt.
I just bought a puff muffin and Wendy's ice cream in medium size (which was big! for me). And V bought milo and french fries.
And not to forget to mention that my big  medium size of ice cream got finished by Harry! *biiiigbigthanks!* haha.

Then we went into music store.
V wanted to buy Justin Bieber CD (but then she bought the DVD then regretted it).
And after the conspiracy from me, F bought the Speak Now CD by Taylor Swift.
Unfortunately, i failed to make Harry bought Cobra Starship CD hahaha.

After that we back to 711. We took seats upstairs, the indoor ones.
Because the outdoor air was hot -_-"
And we joked about our voices and laughs and riots we made would make people downstairs wondered if there's a party there hahaha.
We talked. And laughed. And then i wondered about us in one frame together.
First, me and V tried to make base for Harry's camera. But just me and F who want to sit down and the pictures took.
Then F asked a woman next to us to take photos of us hahaha.
When i realize it's 9pm already, we decided to go home.
Because i went home by transjakarta and i'm afraid that it didnt operate until late.

So we hugged, said goodbyes, and see you later guys! :D