I have various type of friends.
From the ones who loves to share religious thing; the one whose husband works in parliament; the one who is in long term relationship with foreign people; the one who goes to party every week; the one who a smartypants and goes to the best school for free; and more.
Once my colleagues know that I'm a good friend with a blond-haired young woman who, people usually judge, as a bitch.
When they asked where I knew her from, I answered, "I hung out with her." and they looked surprised.
What's the matter?
I love to be friends with everyone, doesn't matter who they are, what their jobs, what they do for life, as long as they're nice people.
And how do you classify nice people if you don't know their personality? Then how do you know their personality if you don't be friends with them?
That's a cycle.
You know a person, you're friends with them.
They're good, stay with them. They suck, leave them.
Good people are not because of where they come from, what religion they believe, or what they wear. It's about the heart.
You NEVER can judge a person by its cover. It's the TRUTH.
Beside, I learnt a lot from them, from what they have experienced, without it happened to me.
Being friends with alcoholic makes me don't want to be an alcoholic.
Be friends with everyone you like, who like you, and make you grow better everyday.
But it's really important to be yourself and to hold on what you believe is right.
Be smart, because there's no guarantee in life that people are always there for you. Most of the times, it's always you all alone.
Absorb what makes you stronger, release what makes you weak.

1 September 2012 - 1 September 2013.
This is the start of my third year in HOL.
Last year I was a squibby squib, but today I'm an eaglety eagle.
So happy finally found a home, after 9 months floating around space on my broomstick.
I've always considered Ravenclaw as my house - way before HOL.
I never thought that I was smart, or wise, or logical, or very Ravenclaw-ish.
But isn't there a quote saying that "It's not about where do you come from that makes who you are, it's what you choose and where you're heading too."
I was sorted into Gryffindor in my first year, a lion with big thick hair and brave heart. I stood to my friends and my dear ones, until it really kicked me down to the hole.
But then in my second year, I chose to be a Ravenclaw. An eagle with wings who is always ready to fly and soar. Who will rip you apart when you mess with my beloved ones. But I wouldn't let you hurt me, because I wouldn't be here, I would be in sky watching people I care about from feet distances apart.

SQL this year was the right moment to come back to HOL after few months idling.
Amy Charz and Matilde Rayne were really kind to invite me to be on their team, Muffins Marauders: The Fame Bandits of Baked Goods.
Together with Allison Sullivan, Sirius Fudge, Xavier Dalen, Shiloh Adlar, Rosalie Mason, and someone else I forgot the name (sorry!), we totally rocked SQL and even got the second place!
In the end, I was really happy with messages I received.
My friends said they were proud, impressed, and happy watched me got better than I ever was before.
And I think you know, there's no better feeling than knowing that you've made people you care about proud.

I'm also made to be in RQT in the same time!
Even I was deeply, really really sad that Kyrie Adderholt should be stepped down from the Quidditch captain chair and shall be set free!
Because I really adore her, love her, and want her to be my captain for another year.
She was my captain for SQL and it was amazing. I'm really unlucky she stepped down just in time I joined RQT.

My HOLife this year is all about brand new things: Houses, Quidditch team.
And I love new things!
I hope my dark sad times in HOL have been passed - since I probably had enough dramz for the wholelife, and I will be having sunshine butterflies rainbow times instead :D

It doesn't matter where or when you meet a friend.
It doesn't matter whom they are. Or how their lives.
When you tried so hard to fit into shoes that don't fit you, it'll hurt.
So do friends.
You don't need too hard to find good and real ones.
Life will show you.
These people below, are people who life has shown me, what friends are.
Friends, don't mean they are from the world where you're from.
Friends, don't mean we need to be exactly the same.
Friends, don't mean we need to meet and talk everyday.
Friends, don't expect your best, but they make you're the best. 
And do you know, that sometimes, friends are forever.

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 20 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 20 people to be tagged . You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.  - And because I'm not comfortable enough posting this in facebook (and blog is much cooler anyway) so here it is.

1. I'm a sensitive person. I know I look like a cold-hearted, ignorant, highly logical one, but I'm actually sensitive and very care person at heart. Believe me, I feel everything and keep that in heart.
2. I remember LOTS of little/random things. What people promised me when I was 8, what my dad told me in my 6th years old birthday, what t-shirt my sister wore in the last 3 years Eid Mubarak, and lots of annoying random things. And whatever you told or said to me, I probably remember it more than you did lol.
3. Smart people turn me on. Basically I'm always going awe whenever I hear someone talking brainiacs. That's because I've always reading Sherlock Holmes, Arsene Lupin, Detective Conan, Enid Bylton books since I was a kid. But also because of smart people are never boring. They're always surprising.
4. I have few friends. It's not that like very few though. It's just probably less than the other people. Because I'm fairly not comfortable surrounded by lots of people. It makes me cranky then I start becomes more annoying than I should be lol. But I'm close with whoever I called friends in my life. And I don't feel bitter by not having many friends, because I think that makes me less stressed that way.
5. I'm not *that* smart. I spent my school days with being thought I was clever. Seriously people, I'm not. I could say my English went better after I left high school. I never really studied math since my senior year in high school. I dislike Physics and Chemicals, because yeah, I never paid attention to them. I love History and Sociology, a LOT. But I don't think that classifies me as clever. I seriously always feel like it was a joke when people think I was clever.
6. I love western. I LOVE Indonesia, don't get me wrong. But I love how western countries look cleaner, more arranged than we are, and the people are open-minded. I love the foods too! I don't like rice and noodles, and people always make fun of me for not being an Asian lol.
7. I hate racism and the whole religion hate kind of thing. WHY CAN'T WE ALL BE FRIENDS? I grew up surrounded by chinese people, christian, hindunese, and buddhist. And when I moved to another city when people were heterogeneous, people gave weird look when there were people who were different. Either they had disability or just different religion. And I'm SICK of it. People need to be open-minded. Yes, I believe Islam is the best and rightest religion of all. But that doesn't mean you can judge everyone who is not like us. Prove it that we're really the best by fixing your behaviour with other people.
8. I miss my dad. Always. Since 13 years ago. Never passed a day without thinking of him. I know it's kind of ridiculous and it looks like I'm the only one here. But I really wish that he never died. My life must have been changed so much if so.
9. I don't like breaking rules. I'm a rules dictator. It's not like I never broke any rules at all. But I just don't like doing it. I avoid it while I can. I really wish people liked obeying rules too so we could live well-arranged, and no some stupid traffic jam just because some people are too dumb to obey the rules.
10. I don't like birthdays. This one is kind of weird. But for me, birthdays are not really important. I mean, the celebrating wise. I'm not excited to know that tomorrow I'll be one year older. And the fact that we grow up every second doesn't help either. But apparently for loads of people, birthdays and remembering speeshul dates are important. So I try my best to remember the special dates of my closest and special people in life so I don't disappoint them.

11. Eleven is my most favorite number of all. Yep. First, it was because of Rukawa. I'm hell in love with that certain brat. And then I learnt that Eleven could be mean: The first of the first. Or I just made that up? Who cares.
12. I'm always sleepy. I don't know what the heck is wrong with me but I'm always sleepy. I'm probably woken up from about 7 am until 12 pm. I feel bad if I yawned when people were talking. But seriously, I never meant that. It's just my ridiculous body who does that. Don't ever think you're boring (even probably you are). Forgive me!
13. I'm a hell of thinker. I think deep. I think beyond far. Whenever I need to choose or make decisions or answering questions, I always lost in my thought for a moment. I try to think faster but I can not. Not because I don't have that capability. But it's because I need to see through everything before I'm sure that I make the right decision. I'm a perfectionist and I don't like flaws. Especially when I found out after it's too late to fix it.
14. I am perfectionist. There, I said it. I always ignore the fact that I'm one of those annoying kind of people. But I can't help that I am. Flaws are hideous and perfection is everything - even I know it better than you that perfect doesn't exist. I think it's better to do zero than to do it 80 of 100. Because it's not perfect. Yeah. Zero is not perfect too, but so does 80 and don't argue with me! I'm a perfectionist and that's one fact about me.
15. I hate stereotypes. Stereotypes are one of humans' worst inventions. Why people think women are tend to be able to cook? I can't cook and it doesn't matter if I could or I couldn't. Why people think men aren't supposed to cry? What if they're deeply sad and how they're supposed to do? Running around shooting people? You can't be a communist and think people are the same. Because they are not. Oh how I love open-minded people.
16. I can't sing. Like, at all. I can make voices and TRY to sing, but it never ended up well. I never sang in my room or in a bathroom. I sang while I drive and when I was in karaoke box. And then I know that I can't sing.
17. I can't stand cold. And I hate rain. I probably won't fit in London. But I plan to live there someday. Bite me.
18. I'm a cat person. You almost can always caught me (at least) take a glance at cat when it's around or try to meow them. I love cats. And since I'm not allowed to have one now, I plan to do when I have my own house.
19. I always want to work in Zoo. Yes. I love animals. Any kind. From worms, snakes, girrafes, penguins, orang utans, to wolves. Or probably I can be a volunteer for WWF. Still no idea how that works though. I want to do a real thing like taking care of animals and stuffs.
20. I'm a A bloodtyped and Virgo person. It's pretty simple if you want to know more about me. Look those two up and you'll get a fine sums up of myself.

Thanks for Mariam Patel for tagging me to her note in Facebook.
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Ikhlas, adalah salah satu ilmu yg paling sulit yg saya temui.
Tapi justru, bukan ikhlas dalam memberi, tapi ikhlas dalam menerima.
Ikhlas dalam memberi itu lebih mudah, karena dalam kondisi itu kita sudah siap kehilangan sesuatu.
Dan kebetulan saya juga bukan orang yg bisa/seneng basa-basi, jadi kalo saya udah ngasih ya berarti dikasih, ikhlas.

Tapi disaat menerima itu justru keikhlasan diuji.
Saat menerima, kita tidak selalu dalam keadaan siap untuk mendapat perubahan dalam hidup kita.

Ikhlas menerima kalo tiba-tiba barang kesayangan hilang.
Ikhlas menerima kalo ternyata rezeki yg ada di dompet bukan punya kita.
Ikhlas menerima kalo orang yg kita sayang ga selalu bisa ada bersama kita.

Saya masih belum 100% ikhlas Papa saya sekarang udah nggak ada.
Menerima, iya.
Karena kalau ga diterima pun keadaannya ga akan berubah.
Tapi ikhlas itu beda lagi.
Saya masih belum 100% ikhlas sahabat yg dulu saya percaya sekarang sudah ga sama-sama lagi.
Saya masih belum 100% ikhlas kepercayaan yg saya kasih ke orang lain disalahgunakan.
Malah kadang, belum 100% ikhlas kalo dapat cobaan yg saya kira terlalu berat.

Ilmu ikhlas itu tinggi sekali, bagi saya.
Dan saya sangat salut dengan orang-orang yg bisa mengikhlaskan, sulit ataupun tidak sulit.
Karena ikhlas itu datangnya dari hati, dan hati itu tidak bisa berbohong.
Mari belajar ikhlas.
Ikhlas memberi, dan terutama, ikhlas menerima.