There was someone like you a long time ago.
He was the kindest, the sweetest, talked like none other boys, he was as faithful as you, I assume.
But he was the first of all, who broke the heart in the end.
Leave the book unfinished, for newest shiny thing.
He made me think that nearly every boy is like that.
That they would treat me like he did.
I used to think that you were different.
But you know it better than I do about what you did about 2 months ago.
And you expect me to forget those things?
Like, past is in the past?
Sure it does, but doesn't we learn best from bad experience we had?

Please think about how much damage you've done before you spit out and walk away from someone's life after make her thinking you were the (different) one.
So much disappointments.

I just thought of it and I found it interesting.
Well it's not a complicated thing about science of social activity. My mind is pretty simple so we think simple things only. Leave the complications for the rest of body.
There are many habits of mine in texting.
Like, I have friends whom I 80% text them in English. Not sure since when but we are doing it.
I enjoy texting in English, but the thing is if you aren't used to do it to someone, you couldn't get the point of comfort.
Like, if someone asked me, "Could we start texting in English since today? I want to improve my English."
I probably can't. I probably can but it doesn't have a comfort point.
And probably, probably, for some people my habit of writing, posting everything in English bother them.
Like I said before, it's the matter of comfort.
I'm used to post Twitter or Path status in English so it's natural.
I do write in Indonesian too, I'm born and raised with that language, but sometimes there are things better explained in English.
I just try to not mix English and Indonesian in one sentence. Still do it. But believe me, I strongly dislike myself when I do that.
With my closest friends, I'm used to talk in capitals.
It is hilarious and fun and I love it.
But of course I can't do it with other people without them looking at me weird.
Like I talk to Sam with many exclamation marks because she does that and I like it.
But if I talked with many exclamation marks as I did with Sam then I would be mistaken as rude or impolite, I'm sure hahaha.

See,
That's why we have many personalities.
Because everyone wants to be treated differently.
Because life force us to treat people differently, in some ways.

I met a friend today, after not seeing her for five years.
We were really close and good friends when we were 15.
But then stuffs got complicated and somehow we're no longer hanging out as much.
We even didn't talk to each other for a very long time.
Only, you know, one two things by Twitter, then Path, now recently Whatsapp.
So glad she spared her time to meet me and it was really good talking to her.
We ended up have a good chat for nearly 5 hours.
I told her, "5 hours chatting for 5 missing years."

People said high schools are the best part of their lives.
Unfortunately it doesn't apply to me.
And unluckily, for her too.
We had problems here and there with several people that made us didn't enjoy meeting our high school friends.
Maybe they have forgotten about that. Or maybe they haven't.
But clearly, we don't.
Yeah. Whatever.
We don't even care about them anymore.
We don't think that we need them that much to try to fix what was in the past, that wasn't even our faults.

We talked about movies, what we fear, our lives, dreams, and also some of our friends. Or ex-friends.
And those weird boys.
Those who hurted us. Those who loved us. Those who played fire with us.
Especially those who think we've forgotten about, we do remember about you.
We just, maybe, rather not to talk about you.

Both of us are Virgos.
Virgos are really my fave type of friends.
Because Virgos understand each other.
Virgos think nearly exactly the same.
We mostly end up saying "I know right!" or "Me too!" or even, "I've been there."
So we can stay mature together or get silly together.
We know our each other limits.

I'm just very excited to meet her, at last.
Also very glad that our meeting didn't turn into an awkward long-time-no-see reunion.
Thank you, you beautiful girl.
I am pretty sure it won't take another 5 years until the next meeting.

Why can't you go when you can't stay?
So many words, so much times
So many promises were broken
I can't let you stay
But I don't want to let you go
We know what we want
But we don't say what we want
It's not us against the world
But it's the world against us
I stopped crying a while ago
But I still wish you'll be staying
Have you ever wonder how we will end?
I have so many thoughts, none of them are pretty
I know you're not good at promising
But if you only can promise me one thing
Please let it be that you'll always be in my life
Wherever you'll stay, whoever you'll be with
I want to know you for the years I have left
Like I've known you for the last five years

People said you need to grow up, go to school, get good grades, have a nice job, build a relationship, get married, settle down, have a couple kids, never worry and live happily.
People said it like it was easy.
People said that you'll need to grow up like your mother, marry a man like your father, dressed as nice as your sister, be friendly like your brother, get a good job like your uncle, cook as good as your grandmother, stay at home like a cute girl, but having many friends like an out-goers.
But they understand that everyone has different lives.
People said that if you're good to people, they'll treat you as nice as well.
People said that you can't be disappointing.
But they didn't tell about people can be disappointing and upsetting.
People said that it's okay to be wrong, that you'll get another chance, that tomorrow will be a nice day, and repeatedly, that they'll always be there for you.
People said today needs to better than yesterday, and that tomorrow needs to be better than today.
But they also said that life is a full circle, you can be in the top for today then in the bottom the next day.
People said they'll respect on what you believe and what you choose. As long as it's not a batshit crazy choices you made.
Oh, and as long as they like the choices too.
When you're a kid, people said you could be anything you wanted to be.
But 10 years later, it was mistaken.
Because, they said, life is real. You need to be real and think realistically and be logical.
Didn't they remember when they told us that you can dream high and you can reach it if you wanted to.
Why adults always think that whatever they told to kids, the kids wouldn't remember it 10 years later?
That the kids didn't understand what they said, and that it's NORMAL to do those all?
If being adults mean being means and morons, then I don't want to grow up.

Except it's not furry.
[It was just a reference for a friend who said it a (quite) long time ago]

Rules:
Using only SONG NAMES from ONE artist/band, cleverly answer these questions.

Artist/Band: Arctic Monkeys
Describe yourself: The Bad Thing
How do you feel: Too Much To Ask
Describe your current situation: This House Is A Circus
Describe where you currently live: If You Were There, Beware
If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Fake Tales of San Fransisco
Your favorite form of transportation: Riot Van
Describe your ex: Why'd You Only Call Me When You're High
Your best friend is: Dangerous Animals
Your favorite color is: Black Treacle
If your life was a television show what would it be called: She's Thunderstorms
What is life to you: Joining The Dots
What is the best advice you have to give: Leave Before The Lights Come On
If you could change your name, what would you change it to: Arabella

Friendship is the strongest magic.
That's HOL motto.
Like Missa said a while ago about me, for me HOL isn't about just Harry Potter stuffs, quidditch, houses, classes, but it's all about friendship.
The site is based on fiction, we've never met people who are in there.
But it's real. The feelings are real.
When someone who I thought was my friend talked ugly behind my back, I was really hurt.
When group of friends I hold very dearly torn apart, my heart really broke too.
It was real.

HOL is pretty much dead now.
Best people are leaving, and I'm sad.
No, I'm not sad because people are leaving.
I'm sad because there is not much in HOL that could be reasons to stay.

I'm only in my third year now. Still a baby.
I had a very good start as a newbie, got good friends, who some turned out to be not good at all.
But it was actually the way to the better life.
Being beaten up, left alone, talked behind, I was found by the better, much better group of friends.
They healed my wounds, teach me to stand up when people expect us to get down, show me how real friends should be.
My second year, it was, really one of the best times of my life.
But sadly, it only lasted for a year.

People leave and life goes on.
I understand that.
I also know that I won't be able to hold them back.
It's just upsetting.
The friendship was pure gold.
I hope it will last long.
I really want to keep them forever as my friends.
And I'm just scared that once they leave, it will never be the same again.
because so far, it isn't.

This is why I'm scared of future.
This is why I hold my past so very very dear.
Because it's easier to stay with good memories than to get up making the new ones.