EMPTY SPACE

People said, our life is like a book.
We are the authors.
It consists of chapters.
If we fail in one chapter, all we need to do just make another chapter and make it wonderful.
Just dont choose to end the book before you finished tell the story.

Just like the real writers, sometimes we meet the empty spaces and we don't know what to write in our books.
They usually take a break and do something in order to get new inspirations.
And I think, what I have recently, is that empty space.

I don't know what I'm doing.
I just do my daily activities.
Wake up, go to work, botting, quidditch practice, and sleep.
It's not that they're not fun.
I'm having fun. I laugh a lot.
I just feel empty.
I feel like a robot.
And those freak me out.

I've been sick, having headache for a week now.
Most of times it doesnt really bother me.
I lost interest of foods. Eating. Ew.
And I lost 2 kilos in 2 weeks.
If my weight's dropped to less than 40kg, I know I would be very sick.
But uh well. I just lost interest of anything in general.

I've been botting a lot. But I cant feel any improvement.
I sometimes want to cry because I dont know what I need to do to be good.

And even I know I need to do something to make me feel better, I dont know what *that* is.
I ate ice cream, lots of foods, watched my favorite movies and animes, and try to talk to people.
None of them could make me feel better.

But weeeell,
Life must go on and I cant just moan with doing nothing.
I need to figure out how to treat this shit.
If it's really just another empty space, then it means I will be able to get my inspiration back to continue my book :)
*cross fingers*