SQL #1

WHOA. Just whoa.
I was the worst quidditch player ever that HOL has ever seen.
I have no idea what happened.
With stupid pinged in and out internet. And all.
That was 4 am and I was sweating like a pig but my hands were frozen.
I was doing okay hours before when I botted.
And even when it was a group botting.
But nerves totally got me in the right place and I was just dead.
I hate my self. So much. For that.
For today.

I feel like I won't ever be able to pay Sam for what happened today.
I'm deeply sorry, Sam...
I thought I was better but I wasn't.