42

It seems unfair if I have bunch of posts about my dad... how I miss and love him so much, but I dont have many posts about my mom.

I admit it that I'm not very close with my mom.
I love her, of course I do. She's the only parent I have.
It's just some things make distance between us.
I didnt like what she did and chose. Neither did she.
But as mother and daughter, we're pretty good. I think.

She's crazy. In a good way.
I laugh a lot when I'm with her. She acts like my older sister instead of my mother.
She is a good cook.
I learnt how to make cookies and cakes from her. She made my sister -who lives with her- is a good cook too.

I just love her.

And today, June 10, is her birthday. She turns 42 today.
42 is a scary age for me. Because my dad was dead in 43.
Despite of how I dont like my mom's choices, I love her so much.
I dont want to lose her. Or anyone else.

So what I wish for her birthday is quite a lot.
I hope she lives long - longer than my dad. Until old enough to see me grow up and have a good life.
I hope she is always, always healthy. Seeing my mom's sick is one of the things I dont want to see in my life.
I hope she's always happy. Like she was before. Like she is. I love her smile.
I hope she's always strong. I know she already is.
I hope everything goes easy for her.

If I could pay for my mom's everlasting happiness, I would work my ass out for get those money.

I just love you mom.
I know you doubt me, but I dont mind proving you wrong :)


Love,
Your Daughter