(DONT BE) SCARED

I'm brave.
No I'm not.
I'm scared a lot.

I'm scared of being happy.
Then the sadness wil follow me afterward.

I'm scared of having good friends.
I dont want them to leave me like the other did.

I'm scared of being weak.
Because I know no one will really protect me.

I'm scared of being strong.
Then people think it's okay to hurt me.

I'm scared of saying goodbye.
Because goodbye sometimes lasts forever.

I'm scared of loving people.
Actually, I'm scared if they dont love me back.

I'm scared of my future.
Because I dont know what I'm gonna be.

I'm scared of death.
Because I know people will slowly forget me after I'm dead.

I'm scared of meeting my mom.
Because I know I never been good enough for her.

I'm scared of being bored when I'm alone.
It shows me that I'm no longer a good friend even for my self.


If only some people could promise me they will stay forever...